Amanda and Alan are left alone.. it seems Amanda wanted a moment with Alan after everything that as happened.
Amanda sighs and tosses her head..
[I think Alan was about 90% sure Amanda was not an agent and just a tourist. She had him fooled!]
Amanda: No, I’m not…
…I’m sorry Alan…
[Is it just me or is Amanda thinking of their kiss when she says this.. I think she is..]
…I didn’t mean to trick you…
[Interesting.. she did mean to not reveal she was an agent. Maybe by ‘tricking’ Alan she refers to how she led him to believe she would be open to a romantic relationship? when really.. she never really was (it was a flight of fancy)? I think she need not worry – I don’t think Alan was terribly emotionally involved in their relationship
Alan doesn’t seem to mind so much- what do you think?]
Alan quietly observes Amanda as she talks.
Cue the sad theme again!
… I think you’re very special…
…and you made me feel very special too.
[this all sounds like a goodbye to me! Alan made Amanda feel special? glad she thinks so.. but umm…. he didn’t do anything for me! ]
Alan: You are very special, Amanda.
Too right she is. You know, I think Amanda enjoyed that he made her feel special. But I don’t think she needed to hear it- not from him. She knows she’s special..
Alan says the words.. but I don’t know how deeply he believes it or Amanda believes it. He hardly knows her- though I guess he can be grateful for the help that he got from her.
How interesting that in Wizard we had Amanda telling Lee he is a pretty special man. And in Over the Limit, Lee tells Leslie that Amanda is very special.. and here? Alan made Amanda feel special.. a running theme here??
– Lee needs to tell Amanda he thinks she is special!!!
Amanda: I really didn’t mean to trick you, you understand?
[Alan she wants you to say it’s okay! ]
The sad music says- this was never meant to be.. hooray!!! tee hee..
Alan quietly: I understand,…
(He takes a step closer to her)
… I understand.
He takes Amanda’s arms and looks at her..
I think Alan is asking- sooo now everything is out in the open – do we still have something here?
I think Amanda’s answer, by initiating this chaste kiss is: Goodbye.
[hip hip hooray!!!]
What a lovely guy Alan is… what a tragedy that it wasn’t meant to be.. they could have been so good together! He would have been good to Amanda. – Nah.. I just made all that up- I think that’s what the writers (and the music) were hoping to inspire, but personally I have no emotional connection here at all to Alan and Amanda’s relationship. She’s way better off without him. The guy was a real lightweight.. a lovely little fantasy to admire his ownhair from a distance.. but the connection for me was never one of substance! How about you?
Amanda pulls back and ends it.
She’s made it clear to Alan in this kiss that this is a goodbye-
Alan takes a couple of steps back realising that’s what this is.
[Yep. you don’t deserve her! ]
I don’t think either of them were thinking they would be seeing each other again! If Alan was thinking that – then he was still in the fantasy!
Alan accepts her goodbye.
Alan: Ciao, Amanda.
Amanda: Goodbye, Alan.
[love how she says ‘goodbye’.. it’s like: I’m not Italian- I don’t say ciao, I don’t belong in your world. this is me. I say goodbye! ]
Amanda smiles broadly.. happy with how they’ve parted.. says a lot!! there’s no regrets there from Amanda and that’s great!!!!
Alan turns to walk away.. and Amanda watches him leave.
She sighs heavily… IMHO not because Alan is leaving.. but because of where things now stand for her with her love life..
she’s just said goodbye to a man who was wrong for her, but she could have tried something with.. and what’s ahead for her at this point is unclear. But Amanda is going to stick with reality. Her lovely little fantasy is over.
Again, I think she’s thinking of Lee here- what happened the night before, and what the future holds.. At this point she can’t be certain of what Lee wants.. but I think she must see that it is Lee she wants- not that I think she will jump into anything.. but she’s very self aware! She wants him, but is not sure if she can have a relationship with him or what’s to come you know? There are so many unknowns at this point.. ohh I’m sure you will all put it so much better than I can!
It’s always been a bit strange that Lee didn’t see this little exchange.. but I am glad he didn’t. It means any future actions he takes will be because of him and Amanda and not pure jealousy..[to react in jealousy to me diminishes the choice of how you act]
Maybe it also would have made things more explicit between them when at this point that is maybe moving the story along too fast.. so for me, I’m happy Amanda got her goodbye kiss, and Lee didn’t see it! [did I just type I’m glad Amanda kissed another man? what am I nuts?! lol !! no really I am.. especially because it was a goodbye!! ]
Okay everyone.. back with the tag next up!!! [I didn’t want to have a gigantic final post on this ep and rush the tag – so have left it to the next post and this one is a little shorter than normal.. ] byeee for now!