So Lee pours Amanda another glass of beer and casually (tentatively?) mentions: Amanda,…
…you never did finish telling me why you got divorced.
[I love that he asks this without accusation or demand..]
Amanda: You really want to know, huh?
(Amanda gives a little smile)
(Lee pours himself a drink)
(Lee tries to sound casual .. but.. yeah!)
[I actually kinda like it that Amanda doesn’t give away information about herself and things that are so important to her so easily.. Lee has to work for it ]
Amanda: You’re pretty nosey, aren’t ya.
[aha! here’s that line that got cut from the Q bureau.. only here – it is not accusatory.. it’s teasing Lee and making light of things, I don’ t think Amanda really means it – Lee is curious.. but he isn’t putting pressure on her so IMHO he isn’t nosey! Though I understand YMMV!]
At this moment both Lee and Amanda share a proper laugh together.. sweet!
Amanda continues: …Okay,…
…well it’s no big secret…
[doesn’t make it easy to talk about!]
[Amanda looks off into the distance.. going back in her mind to those days.]
…well, when Joe got out of Law School he was interested in the Emergency Aid Organisation,…
…and that meant constant travel…
(Lee is seen taking a swig of his beer here.. but he’s still absolutely riveted by Amanda’s story she’s sharing..
He nods his head silently, encouraging her to continue)
…I just, ah,…
[While Amanda searches for the words, we are still on Lee- we see his jaw grinding away here as he listens intently.. maybe a little worried about what she’s about to say? what do you all think?!!! ]
…I just didn’t think that would be good for the boys….
[I’m being very careful to match the pics with the words – because BB knocks it out of the park here as he wordlessly takes in what Amanda is sharing.. as she shares that the travel wasn’t good for the boys – it’s like Lee’s love for Amanda comes out! I think Lee loves how good a mum Amanda is and how she has looked after them so well – Lee would appreciate how important a parent is to a young boy. Whoa.. also interesting to note that Lee ended up travelling an awful lot because of his uncle when he was growing up – and he had found it difficult – or at least that was my impression.. so this would really resonate with Mr diaper duty err Lee! ]
…They were too little, you know…
…Six months here, six months there….
…I really thought it would be better if we were all settled.
Lee: You wanted to be a housewife.
Amanda: Well I wanted a home…
…I wanted.. for all of us to have a home…
[the ‘all of us’ part here is interesting]
…Joe felt that he— he really… [Amanda chooses her words very carefully here]
…had something to give so he went ahead and took the job…
…and I stayed in Arlington….
…I guess we were really sort of separated for a couple of years, and then we finally admitted that it—
[Amanda looks so sad here.. KJ does an amazing job here.. so subtle.. she conveys Amanda’s sadness, but also her private nature. I think for Amanda’s character, having to put into words what happened is quite a cathartic, helpful experience – which IMHO will help her to heal her past hurts and move forward (with a certain swoony spy!) What do you think?]
…it just wasn’t going to work….
(We cut back to Lee..
he was leaning forward and now shifts back a little.. I get the impression he is unimpressed by Joe and his choices..)
Lee grinds his jaw some more (or as BJo would say – he does his cheeky Lee thing!)
Amanda continues: So,…
…life’s turned out okay.
[I think Amanda tries to lighten things a little.. there was so much that she didn’t say.. but if you read between the lines it seems Amanda was not treated well – the phrase ‘Joe felt he had a lot to give’ is especially poignant – as it seems to me he chose not to ‘give’ to his family!!! grrrr..
I can’t wait to hear what you all make of it exactly! but.. Amanda is very brave here]
[Get your swoon helmets ready ladies! ]
Lee chooses to stay in serious mode just a moment longer. There’s something he wants Amanda to know..
Lee (softly): Yeah, but “okay”…
(Lee shakes his head)
…isn’t good enough for you.
[Lee is looking a bit teary here no?? I guess he feels for Amanda, but also – he feels deeply the pain of having a father not be with his family no? what do you all think? ]
Amanda smiles in response to this –
I think for such a swoony remark, so full of meaning – Amanda copes very well with it. I think Lee means to say Amanda deserve better than that, and what happened wasn’t right.
I don’t think Lee is talking about himself here, I think all his thoughts are with Amanda and what is best for her – not with himself. But this in itself says a lot doesn’t it?! I think this is the most direct thing Lee has ever said about what he thinks of Amanda as a romantic partner no? His comment implies that she is very special, and worthy of better than ‘okay’ . This is huge!!!
But.. Amanda appreciates this remark by Lee but I don’t think she grasps the full meaning of it – I think she’s too caught up in her sadness at how things turned out – not the way she had hoped or planned.. So the magnitude of what Lee just admitted is a little lost on her. She doesn’t even seem to notice the love in his eyes here.. or is it just me thinking this?? She doesn’t really hold his eyes for long here.. (but gotta stop here for the moment).
Amanda lets out a chuckle of sorts at Lee’s remark and turns to look around the bar..it’s a very fleeting smile as she turns and is distracted by the happenings that are ahead – which I’ll get to in the next post.
Is it lost on Lee? does he realise what he just said? I think he’s so caught up in comforting Amanda he doesn’t think about it in this moment..but it’s got to dawn on him what he just said and how he feels about her at some point.. and when he does.. he’ll need to ask himself – do I deserve her???!!!
I better pause here for the moment! This post is getting big.. I really can’t wait to hear what you all think of this scene.. and just savour it!!
I will give us plenty of time to discuss this post before moving on to the next I think.
There is more to add to this with the next moment but I’ll have to wait till the next post to cover it. I also haven’t said much about what I think Amanda is saying when you read between the lines here – I’ll leave that for comments and discussions.. I suspect one of you will put my thoughts into words perfectly!
As you often do! Bye for now.